& Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Finished.

It's over.

That's it.

And life goes on.

But it just feels like you left a chunk of you behind.

On that very special day.

National schools.

You feel so helpless.

Sitting on the sidelines.

Cheering your heart out.

Yet worrying whether it's all gonna work out.

And as the tears well up.

As you try hard to keep them within their reins.

As you close your eyes and try to act as if some dust had just got into it.

As you struggle not to take another breath that might betray you.

You wonder.

You wonder.

What're you really doing this for?

What makes you go through all this?

Then you break.

And the tears just flow through you.

Not just the tears.

The sorrow.

The unjust.

Our fate........

You'll get this awful feeling.

That all you've been doing's for nothing.

That no matter how hard you try.

It won't work.

You want to cry out.

Vent your fustration.

Your anger.

Your helplessness.

And then.

And then.

You'll feel better.

Just cry out.

When they were there slapping each others back.

Trying not to cry out themselves.

What will the others think?

As they hug.

As they try to share their sorrow.

To make people understand what they had went through and will continue to do so to win.

As they try to get people to see their effort.

And if they fail.

What will they have left?

Their dreams are shattered.

Their will is broken.

Their souls are drained.

Their faith is thin.

And who will they turn to?

Who will understand them?

Nobody.

Besides themselves.

And that's why.

They cry.

( 7/19/2006 09:48:00 PM )

& Dream

lazy days
lonely nights
looking for a lonely star
who'd keep me company

looking at the widespread sky
being me a lonely soul
gazing at the moon so bright
making wishes upon a star

a blow of breeze
to animate
the freezing scene

so the strings of white gold ribbons
seem to tease the lonely moon
because it is standing still
and they are free to move

"twinkle twinkle little star . . . "
I used to sing when I was young
now I've grown but still today
" . . . how I wonder what you are"

lying down upon the meadows
dream of flying up so high
reach the stars, sit on the moon
dancing ballet with the clouds

& about

14
RI noobies
3P
13/04/92
Boy
Cool glasses
CCA: Judo
178cm
71kg

& links

Links

*Yifan
*Yidan
*Sumo
*Soggy
*Jasmine
*Eening
*Zheng Yi
*Yan Yan
*Jaslin
*Wayne
*Fu Ying
*Max
*Emma
*Chun Yin
*Wei Xiang ( Not Fan Club )
*Zhong Ren
*Jing Wen
*Sarah ( Who's That? )
*Iz
*Air
*Ahmed
*Chinkie

& Loves

Badminton
Judo
Bowling
Pacing
Reading
Chatting
Laughing

& Hates

This is blank so nobody can hate me or anything

& Wishes

Grow taller ( Aim for 180!! )
Grow slimer ( Aim for 65? )
Germany winning the ( Next )World Cup
GPA ( Nah no aim : p )
Manage Sec 3 without screwing up

& Pet

& Past

June 2006; July 2006; August 2006; September 2006; December 2006; February 2007; April 2007; May 2007;

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